So the waiting game is over. I got the call at last yesterday and they offered me a job to work at Windy Gap. In the kitchen. I'm on freaking Young Life property staff.
I feel like I should preface by saying that this has been my dream for 3 years now. Casey can recall me talking about my dream of working on property staff on our very first date. But when I talked about it, it was always an eventually...thing. Like, after I graduate college. After I'm settled down. And at the time, I was picturing that being like, when I'm t h i r t y or something. But instead, the Lord moved us to Asheville, in a perfect position for me to start pursuing that dream sooner rather than later. And it's like...actually worked out.
When Casey and I first moved to Asheville and people would ask us why we chose to move there of all places, we would say stuff like "oh we just really liked that it's pretty" or "oh we just wanted to move somewhere cool". Last night, after I got the call, we just talked and talked about how many other reasons the Lord has shown us as to why we picked Asheville. We wouldn't say He called us here. He's called us to a life lived radically, a life without fear, a life of adventure, but to Asheville, I wouldn't say He specifically called us here. He has, however, worked things out for good.
He's given amazing friends -- people in the same stage of life to walk with, and people a few steps ahead to learn from. He's given us an amazingly fruitful ministry with our Young Life kids. He's provided for us financially, even when we were skimming the bottom of our bank account to make ends meet. He's given Casey a great job that's providing him with opportunities to love his coworkers and our community every day. He provided me with an amazing job at the YMCA where I fell in love with so many kids and families.
This time last year, I was applying for my first job at Windy Gap (coincidentally, it was a kitchen position too) and when I didn't get it, I was crushed. I was a mess for days. I wasn't enjoying my job at the Y at the moment and had seen that opportunity not only as my dream, but as a way out, and as something that was going to make my life complete. Since then, the Lord has done a number on my heart. He's pushed me to invest in the lives of people around me, even if they're in a place I don't want to be. He's shown me that I should take pride in what I'm doing, and that I should work hard, even if it's not something I'm passionate about. And now I'm here a year later, waking up at 2 am at the thought of not seeing those people every day once I start this new job. How blessed am I to have been a part of something I love so much, it's so hard to let go of. Now I know He just had work for me to do before He was going to let me have this.
I am overwhelmed at this gift of an opportunity to go and give my life to this camp and how much I feel like I don't deserve it. He just didn't have to give it to me. He could have waited so much longer but he didn't. Because he's crazy about me. And not because of anything I've ever done, or will do, or because of my personality, or even because of my love for Him. But simply because I am His.
Before I made you in your mother's womb, I chose you. Before you were born, I set you apart for a special work. Jeremiah 1:5
I pray that Christ will live in your hearts by faith and that your life will be strong in love and be built on love. And I pray that you and all God's holy people will have the power to understand the greatness of Christ's love -- how wide and how long and how high and how deep that love is. Christ's love is greater than anyone can ever know, but I pray that you will be able to know that love. then you can be filled with the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:17-19
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